first siren

I woke up from a very unusual alarm at 8am - it was a siren warning that the rockets have been fired towards Tel Aviv and you need to run to the shelter. I hoped to sleep a bit longer so firstly, I was annoyed by an early wake-up call. Then I saw all the messages with warnings from work that the office is closed today and check-in from friends, I thought "What is going on?" It was my first real siren (not training or memorial ones).

There were only 2 things I thought about immediately. I had this weird mix of feelings this morning when I heard the siren. how much X is important for me and how much it's the only thing I think about. I felt bad sitting on my balcony and not knowing what to do.