thoughts & feelings

I want to scream but I simply can't.

 That feeling of being together, whatever happens, regardless of how hard it is (even if you're locked at-home isolation will be not that hard if we're together).

So many things to say, so many feelings to feel.

Can it be better than the last 1-2 months? The relationships are not always perfect, fun, and happy. Sometimes it's difficult, sometimes it's a routine, sometimes it's hurtful, sometimes it's misunderstanding and it requires a lot of work and investments from both. So many things happened in the last few months that made it harder and we didn't speak and worked on it for some time, but if we both want to change it - I believe.

Do you want him to be happy? Of course, I do! How could I want my partner, the man I love, not to be happy? Do I care about his happiness? Of course, I do; every time seeing something is not right, worrying about it and trying to guess why.


Do I want to be better at sharing my own emotions and make him more comfortable in sharing his?  Do I want to be more attentive to the emotional part of him, me, and us? Yes, I do. Can we learn how to communicate our feelings, our expectations, and values and accept them and adapt to each other?

I realized that the feeling I wanted to get from someone else, I need to get from inside.