twice more

 It's probably not so fair but I like to have 2 New Years - 2 times more New Year resolutions, 2 times more unfulfilled promises and wishes. 

This year is so different from the others. Lockdown, no real ability to travel, no feeling of having a family, being mainly by yourself for a few weeks. Living in my own apartment, being in love with it and being unable to stop ordering/buy new things for it. First time painting experience here too - so many things happen for the first time.

It's hard for me to think about everything that happened and why, so I just let myself feel. I prefer it this way and my shrink thinks it's a good idea, so it sounds like the best thing to do.  I hope there are enough shows to binge watch on Netflix

I just want 5781 to be/feel better. I want it to bring more happiness and joy and leave the tears and pain in the past. It sounds quite cliche, I know. 

It's time to discover the unknowns of 1km radius around my house.