This weekend was beautiful - so colorful, so disconnected, so funny, and light. We almost got lost in the forest surrounded by wild cows and wild people, walking by Toscana and Switzerland at the same time. It finally felt fun, adventurous, and exciting. Only at night, right before falling asleep, these memories got into my mind - that little magical place near the lake and mountain, and the feelings we I had back then. Being hold strong, smiling and feeling happy, loving and loved.  Now it all seems so far away and so unreal, if only I knew..

It gets dark very early and it feels grey most of the time. Sometimes I feel like there is no point, it's boring, it feels empty but it's just winter, I guess.