no more

I'm so tired. 

I'm tired of worrying, I'm tired of thinking, I don't want to see dreams (or not the ones I see now). 

I'm tired of plans, attention, new and irrelevant people, fake smiles, boring conversations, and meaningless information. It's all just not interesting to me. 

As time goes by, I see more and more clearly the whole picture. It might sound like a good thing but trust me, it's not. It just continues to hurt me - how unfair, one-sided, and sometimes **** it was. I didn't see, my mind was blurred by my emotions (not a zombie)

No surprise I feel no energy or excitement for anything new. I need time to rest, I need time to heal and get back to myself - I’m on my way there. 

And I'll go where people love me