Corona fever

 Hey friend, 

I feel very bad in the last few days. I'm sure it can be all explained by Corona fever and being sick but it doesn't help me to feel better. I'm refusing to go do a test, some things I'd rather not know at all. Unless I'm on the borderline of emergency, I'll just stay home by myself, hoping that someone would notice if something happens (pretty sure my work will). I hate feeling sorry for myself but can't stop these thoughts and feelings. 

Yesterday and last night my mind was so uncalm and worried, going to all the wrong places and bringing back so many memories. I can't stop myself from crying and right now it's hard to find the energy to fight it. What I was afraid of, happened and I just need to be calm and strong to face it, but I'm very weak now.

It's so hard to realize and accept all the actions and words.