what if..?

Last night was most likely the best one in the last month. It was so fun, exciting, interesting and easy while being so emotional and complex at the same time. It's like the first date with someone you're madly in love with. I feel like something inside of me is going to explode, I don't know how is it going to feel when it happens.

I'm being stubborn and even though I don't want/expect to make any decisions, I can't stop myself from going through all the possible options. I'm trying to think if one is better than the other, or maybe more/less ricky? What's the easier one? What's the right one? What's the one that will hurt less? If after all this time there is still 'all that', how can you ignore it?
What are the reasons stopping us and can they be fixed? Can it go slowly and carefully, while listening to your own hearts...?
How can we run away from all this good feelings and what for? Facing fears isn't easy but necessary.

There were so many things I didn't have time or courage to say.
I want to see you but not 'around'. 

My baby doesn't call me so put me through operator

Probably the worst feeling in the world is to love someone and not to be with him/her.