Cloudy

Today was the first grey cloudy day in Tel Aviv and the first time in a few weeks I got a chance to wonder around town by myself -  maybe only Marvin Gaye in the headphones was making sure I don't feel too bad. Thanks for this, Marvin.

 Instead of feeling mad, angry or stuff like that I just feel sad and kind of broken - I feel I've been beaten hard emotionally and can't decide if I lost all of my emotions by now or became only one of them. I've heard so much and felt so much that I didn't know was possible in such a short period of time - I want to sleep it through but can't make friends with sleep last couple of nights. I want to sit in a quite dark room with no sounds and hope to hear my own self.

Being hurt is essential when getting close with someone.